So, my house is getting cleaned very slowly. It’s really tough having a full time job as I’m sure many of you know. With kids and a husband that works two jobs, I’ve had a lot of trouble managing everything AND keeping my home cleaned.
When this month started, I had no idea how difficult it was going to be. I thought that my job would have been the toughest, but dealing with the effects of an assault on my husband, a loss of a job (following said assault), the death and difficult circumstance around Thanksgiving, sickness, and much more has taken a lot out of me, more so than the anti anxiety/depression medication has been able to handle. I’m looking forward and towards this upcoming week, and I’m seeing lots of more emotional turmoil heading my way. I’m not excited about it and trying to figure out ways to handle it better than retreating to my room and crying all day haha! But, enough about negative stuff…we all have negative stuff happening but this isn’t my focus for this post. As it’s been forever since I’ve said anything here and I’m a person who works hard to keep her committments, I felt that an update is proper.
Work is work, which is pretty normal honestly. I’m doing well in my new classroom and finding ways to belong and be useful now. It’s been such a wonderful transition and a lot of fun being supported better and working within my comfort zone. Hoping for even more success as I’m better able to work towards going to bed at a better time and building more success as I continue to work.
My other blog is doing fantastic! I recently passed 3000 views, which for me is very unexpected as my goals were just to hit 2000 or 2300 at the very most. I felt that I really didn’t do a lot to promote either, which is why it’s so surprising to me. I’m not upset though…actually, I’m pretty excited as there’s been a lot of negative events happening that has made it difficult to focus or concentrate on anything other than what was going wrong.
We had a death in the family that was very unexpected, and as we were in the process of getting picked up to meet her, which was rudely interrupted by situations we couldn’t control, she passed without ever meeting us. The loss of a chance to meet a very important part of my husband’s family in the early part of his life has been rather tough in ways I’m not even able to articulate yet. It’s been really tough as the kids were expecting their Nana to visit and not getting to see her. I am confident that something good will come soon to balance out all this bad stuff as it feels like life’s really trying to derail all the good things that have happened this year. It’s been brutal to say the least.
Well anyway, enough of the news about me. I feel that it’s important to be honest and to not gloss over the bad things that happen in our lives. I’ll be able to post more later, but for now, this is what’s up with me!